You’re Not Addicted to Alcohol—You’re Addicted to Avoiding Your Truth
How emotional suppression disconnects you from your power, and why your body’s symptoms are begging you to be seen.
This was never about the alcohol.
It was about silence.
Suppression.
Self-abandonment.
The kind of disconnection that creeps in when you’ve swallowed your truth for so long, your body starts to whisper… then scream.
The Real Root Isn’t Addiction—It’s Disconnection
So many women think they’re addicted to alcohol. Or food. Or procrastination.
But what they’re really addicted to…
is avoiding the version of themselves they were told was too much to be loved.
You were never meant to live a life that required numbing to survive.
You were meant to live fully expressed.
But when you were conditioned to stay small…
To tone it down…
To make everyone else comfortable…
You learned to trade your truth for acceptance.
And the longer you’ve gone without expressing your voice, your needs, your fire—
The more your body has stepped in to carry the burden.
When You Suppress the Truth, the Body Starts to Speak
Suppressing your truth doesn’t just silence your voice—it shifts your entire nervous system into survival mode.
At first, you might just feel off. A little numb.
But then…
- Anxiety creeps in—your body bracing against a life out of alignment.
- Depression takes hold—a deep freeze response, the soul’s protest against pretending.
- Physical symptoms show up—tight chest, aching back, sore throat, fatigue that no amount of coffee can fix.
This is all feedback.
Your body is not the problem.
It’s the messenger.
How I Finally Saw the Truth Beneath the Drinking
I decided—again—that I was going to stop drinking.
But this time felt different.
Harder. Heavy. Like I was dragging my entire nervous system through the mud with me.
And I couldn’t understand why.
I’ve gone long stretches without alcohol before—easily.
But this time?
This time I had gone silent.
I wasn’t:
teaching.
creating.
expressing.
Just surviving.
That’s when I saw it clearly:
The alcohol wasn’t the addiction.
My AVOIDANCE was.🤯
Avoiding my truth.
Avoiding my voice.
Avoiding the fullness of who I am when I’m not trying to make myself more digestible.
The drinking wasn’t the cause.
It was the symptom.
A way to cope when I had abandoned myself.
This isn’t self-sabotage … it’s SURVIVAL.
We love to throw around the phrase self-sabotage as if it’s a character flaw.
But it’s not. It’s a brilliant coping mechanism.
A trauma response.
When your outer life is out of alignment with your inner knowing, your system reaches for anything to relieve the tension.
👉 Alcohol.
👉 Scrolling.
👉 Isolation.
👉 Overworking.
Not because you’re weak.
Because your body is wise.
You adapted to survive a world that never felt safe for your truth.
“You’re too sensitive”
“You’re too loud”
“You’re too much”
“You’re too INSERT YOURS”
So played small. You put on a mask. You hushed your voice. You became someone else to protect yourself.
But now?
You’re safe enough to reclaim it.
Your Cravings Aren’t the Problem—They’re the Clues
The craving isn’t bad.
It’s a messenger.
It’s not about wine.
It’s not about sugar.
It’s not about dopamine.
It’s about your voice.
Your presence.
Your expression.What you’re really craving…
is you.
What Helped Me Finally Come Home
This time, I didn’t force it.
I didn’t shame myself into change.
I didn’t white-knuckle through the cravings.
I returned to truth.
Here’s what that looked like:
- Daily Expression: One YouTube Short a day—not to perform, but to move energy. To remember my voice.
- Spiritual Discipline: Nourishing foods. Gentle fasting. Not as punishment—but as devotion.
- Nervous System Repair: Breathwork. EFT. Grounding. Simple tools that reminded my body it was safe to be seen.
- Reframing Work: I stopped resenting freelance. I let it be a bridge—not a cage.
- Returning to God: Stillness. Prayer. Presence. Remembering I was never meant to do this alone.
- Grace: Not because I got it perfect. But because I finally got it true.
You’re Not Broken, Addicted or Hopeless—You’re Just Disconnected
If you’re caught in the loop—the drinking, the numbing, the spiraling—
There’s nothing wrong with you!
You are just disconnected.
From your voice.
From your truth.
From your power.
⚠️ Stop trying to control the behavior.⚠️
❌ Restricting. White-knuckling. Forcing discipline. Hustling through another 30-day challenge you secretly resent.
This is fear-based control masked as “healing” …
And your nervous system knows the difference.
These rigid rules create more misalignment. More shame. More unsafety.
Because the root issue was never your habits.
It was the parts of you that had to be silenced just to survive.
When you let the GOOD GIRL go …
When you allow all of you to be expressed, messy, wild, real …
The need to numb?
It dissolves.
Not because you fought it harder.
But because you stopped fighting yourself. 👏🤎
The parts of you that were silenced aren’t weak.
They are waiting.
To rise.
To speak.
To come home.
❌ She doesn’t need more SHAME.
🔥She needs to be SEEN.
If you’re ready to reclaim your truth (& your LIFE FORCE ENERGY in the process)
I’d love to walk with you.
Book a Break Free Activation Call.
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This isn’t about behavior change.
It’s about truth reclamation.
Because the woman you were before the mask?
She’s still here.
